Being competitive - with myself & others - sometimes to a fault...
When is it an excuse, and when is it a reason for doing/not doing something....
Perfectionism and the tendency to not want to do something if I can't do it perfectly...
Feeling rebellious when I have parameters....
Laziness
The knowledge that my body isn't acting 19 anymore... Bleh!
Comparison
Balance between legalism & giving myself grace
and I guess this all boils down to my motives for participating in a 30-day challenge.
As I feel like I gain clarity on any/all of these areas, I'll try and update. But for now, I know that the Lord is showing me a LOT of areas where I need more consistency. The primary area is reading His word, so that's where I'm focusing my 2nd 30-day-challenge.
I'm going to go ahead and read through the 30 chapters of Proverbs - one each day - plus a chapter or two of Acts since that's where our church is camping out right now for Sunday messages... Pretty basic, but for now I'm going to focus on just that and pray through the above list and listen to what the Lord has to say to me...
5 comments:
Abby, Thank you for sharing your heart a bit. Enjoy reading through Proverbs. :-)
Nineteen, shmineteen. :) You look awesome Abbey!
And I totally understand the competitive stuff... I think you and I are built very much the same way and constantly compare our methods to other peoples'.
From my perspective, I think you naturally do so many things right, and SHOULD give yourself grace if you can't do it perfectly!
Everything in moderation. Like workouts and chocolate.
I love you and your honesty. God gives you much more grace than you give yourself. I am looking forward to spending time with you and hearing how God is speaking to you through His word. I've been learning a lot in James right now and about doing unto others as I would like done unto me. Didn't we learn that in Kindergarten?? I must have been absent that day because it is just now starting to resonate in my soul. And the loving your enemies part of that...ouch...
I love you Abbey and thank you for sharing your heart and struggle with us. God has been glorified through you in this challenge! Just look at what He has brought forth for you to lean on Him as you work through. Like he did with me it looks like he has used this challenge for something far different then you imagined when you started. I praise God for the work He has begun in you. Keep trucking girl...HE IS YOUR STRENGTH!!!
Can't wait to visit more about this face to face and hear more of your heart. I can relate to a lot of your thoughts. I think it is awesome how aware you are of where God wants you to focus on - can't wait to hear where he takes you as you read through Proverbs. Miss you!
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